Filed under: atonement, injury, Judgments, suffering, why "bad things" happen
I fell and fractured my arm last Shabot. I will tell you why.
Before the Shabbot in the Mikvah as the Ben Eash Chy recommends I made confession for sin under the water. But this time I went into great detail asking to purified from all that I had done wrong. That I should be “white as snow”. Well on Shabbot I got up in the middle of the night prayed till “Yestabach” as I usually do. The rain then stopped. I then ran as I normally do to the “Tefilah”(PRAYER). Right before the mikvah door I fell.
It comes to mind “be careful what you pray for for you may get it.”
I went home meditated and asked the God why this had happened, then I opened the bible at “random” to find the answer. This has been a practice of many sages. It read :
“I will extol you, YHV’H ; for you have lifted me up, and have not made my enemies rejoice over me. YHV’H ELOHAY, (this refers to accusers created above by sins) I cried to you, and you have healed me. YHV’H, you have brought up my soul from Sheol; you have kept me alive, that I should not go down to the pit. (psalm 30)
It is known atonement comes through suffering as its written :
Rabbi Yuhuda Petiah writes the supernal told him
“The Supernal court in its rulings is not trying to avenge the actions of the wicked, but only to cleanse the levels of the soul of the Just from sins. By which ever punishment will fix and purify them quickly, so they may then enter the Garden of Aden.” (Minchat Yehudah)
The trials of the righteous are explained in Midrash,2 where we are taught that God only tries the righteous because the more one beats flax the more it is improved and glistens as fine linen. He can not do so with a defective vessel as it will break. It is as the sages teach:3 that God tries the righteous, testing them before He confers greatness upon them. Rabbi Yitzchak further teaches us that when man comes to grief through sin and is liable to death by the hand of Heaven, atonement is made by his ox dying, his poultry being lost, his flask breaking, or by his falling and injuring his little finger. A drop of blood flows from it, and this part of his life is considered as the whole of it. These damages are not chance occurrences but the mercy of the Holy Blessed One. 4 Rabbi Shimon bar Yochai shows us that there is also great benefit in our hardships, as God delights in the soul but not in the body. He afflicts the body so that the soul may gain freedom. So we see physical suffering is only to remove a covering from the soul so that it may be more openly revealed.5
2. Midrash Rabba Bereshith 34:2.
3. Ibid. Shemot 1 :21.
4 Zohar 3:46b
5 Bava Kamma 50a.
It is painful and difficult to type.
THANK YHV’H FOR ALL